What is God Up To?

I know everyone reading this has had those times when you thought, “I need a miracle. This problem is daunting and I’ve needed help for months and no one seems to be able to help. I’ve prayed, but the delay in God’s response hasn’t come. I’m a my wits end. I can’t go on like this much longer.”

That was my dilemma this morning. If you’ve read my blog, “Life is Like a Box of Chocolates,” Part 1 and 2, and “God’s Mysterious Ways” you know I’ve been through one medical disaster after another since September. The first was finding out a growth was Squamous Cell Carcinoma which kept recurring. The last removal was at the end of November and I’m still holding my breath it won’t return. Next, I fell the first part of December which caused extreme shoulder pain which I’m seeing an orthopedic doctor for because I have plate holding the left clavicle together and one of the screws bent on that fall. And last, but surely not least, was an onset of severe Vertigo on December 30, 2021, which caused so much stress my heart after 4 days, I went into arrhythmia and my blood pressure shot up to 211/116 when the ambulance arrived. On the 18th of January I had a cardiac catheterization and stent placement. The Vertigo remains and is affecting everyday living because the meclizine every 6 hours gives only minimal relief.

It seemed the doctors were treating symptoms as they were coming up and not really researching the cause of these sudden separate traumas and illnesses. So, I decided to research on my own on the nih.gov website which publishes research cross referencing diseases and their possible relation to one another. So, I looked at the abnormalities in the labs that were from the ER on January 3rd. I found my TSH level was high, so I knew my hypothyroidism was not under control. Cross referencing with every other one of my diagnoses including: Squamous Cell Carcinoma; osteoporosis (thinning bones); Meneir’s disease; (which my cardiologist suspected might be the cause of the severe Vertigo); hypertension; coronary artery disease; and high levels of bad (LDL) cholesterol in lab work. The answer was my hypothyroidism had a direct correlation with them all.

Then this morning I was set to have a video visit to get referrals to an Ear Nose and Throat specialist, endocrinologist for the thyroid disease and dermatologist for the skin cancer. I had called every doctor in Tyler and surrounding areas I could to try to get an appointment for the ENT first but it was 2 months out before I could see anyone. I thought perhaps my primary physician clinic could get me in somewhere. But technological issues did not allow my video visit and I was going to have to reschedule and come in to the clinic.

At that point, I almost got frustrated, but I stopped, smiled and looked up and asked, “Lord, what are you up to?” To those who have experienced what some call “serendipity,” but I call “God’s Amazing Grace,” you’ll understand what happened next was the answer to every problem at once.

Within a matter of only few a minutes of asking God, my cell rang and it was one of the ENT doctor’s offices I had called that was in Athens, TX about 25 miles from me. I had previously talked to them and they said they had no openings until April. The receptionist on the phone said she talked to the doctor and she could see me tomorrow at 1:30 pm. I almost fell out of my chair.

When I hung up the phone I googled the doctor and there were more miracles from the Lord which unfolded. Not only was she an ENT, she specialized in thyroid disease and was a surgeon for head and neck cancers like Squamous Cell. Since I already have an orthopedic surgeon and cardiologist she completed everything I needed.

The rest of the day I spent calling my close Christian friends who I knew would understand what it feels like when the Lord grabs you by the shoulder and says, “I told you I’m always with you.”


  1. My oh my! And I thought WE had troubles! I felt like that old adage of “I felt sorry for myself because I had no shoes until I met a man with no feet!” Our troubles are small ones compared to what you’ve been through. But, like you, we rely on God, His power, the blessings of friends and family praying for us, and the faith to know god hears, God cares, and God is in control. So good to know you have found a doctor who completes a fine circle of care givers. You are blessed indeed. Go forward, Phyllis… and BEE WELL!! Come visit Bob & me at http://www.janbeek.blog and add your prayers to ours for you, will you?

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